Anon you burnt any mercy or compassion you had and received from anons. And you received a lot.
We are not therapists, we cannot solve your lovelife or problems. Many of us do not have a lovelife, but you are not concerned for our emotions or lives; and we don’t complain about it constantly.
Start researching, contributing to the thread and every once in a while ask for help.
But everything you post,is you complaining about your life without the slightest concern for anons that most certainly could have a worse condition
Many anons have tried to help. We can’t solve this for you, because you are not clear or honest what happened to you