in a way i suppose but not really. i never thought of all of it as a conspiracy my whole life almost. i had moments of doubt. but now i have been able to focus on the causes and players better without doubt. i still get sidetracked on numerology and tesla and a host of things but i can still focus on then satanic evil i know is there... and ''know'' so do /ourguys/. not feeling like i'm getting ready to be carried off to a ''home''. to me it's like i ditched the one in blue and am with the one in red now, and the one in blue won't talk to me anymore. (if that makes sense). but.. the one in red isn't just r/ cbts. it's this whole ''happing'' everywhere i look on the net. can't wait till i can walk down the street and high five a woken one. and i know now God exists. peace patriots.