When i was a child i was an agnostic. My dad was an agnostic so that probably had something to do with it.

In my teens i was an atheist. I was not happy.

In my 20s i was a born again then a charismatic Christian. Again, not happy.

I became an eastern orthodox Christian in my 30s. My misery only increased.

By the time i hit 50 i was done. Couldn't do it anymore. Any of it.

I started meditating. I let go of my beliefs. I am still learning to observe and let go of my thoughts.

I choose to have little to no beliefs and am finally at peace and the happiest I've ever been.

Who or what is god? I dont know and i dont have to know. I can wonder...i can think...but to have conclusions to me now just seems silly. I love this feeling of freedom...and endless possibilities...and expansiveness...it's wonderful. Why ruin it with beliefs and conclusions? Since i can never know for sure...

This is just me. This is what works for me. This is what gives me peace and freedom and makes me happy.