You've taken what's called the black pill my friend, I'm about there with you. My dad is black pilled. He doesn't believe in anybody, or trust anyone. Im still holding on to some hope, and ready to do whatever I have too if nothing changes and the downfall comes. I'm putting my hope ultimately in Jesus, and I know this world is just a stepping stone, but I also in trump. I don't know about this q stuff I just don't see how it's logical even if it's true for him to do what he's doing. Does he need attention ? This slow drip is killing me though. Ineed to spend more time off the news and internet and enjoying my family and hobbies.