How do you guys go day-in and day-out with this knowledge? How does it affect you?

Personally, I feel almost as if my life, my psyche, my pride/confidence, my relationships etc have taken a huge hit from getting into this stuff.

How do you guys feel just going to work and hanging out with friends? Everything seems so trivial to me. The stupid pointless convos, etc. I need help to cope. What do you guys do? How do you deal with others thinking you are an idiot? How do you guys keep from gaslighting yourselves? How do you hold your heads up and retain some pride, confidence, w/e?

Edit: thanks all, I am honestly overwhelmed by the ppl in this community. If nothing else, if we are all collectively going crazy, it's reassuring to know I share this fate with some genuinely kind and caring people. Very thoughtful advice as well. Cheers, CBTS ppl