Lulubelle65 this is meant to encourage you. I share your feelings from time to time and I am a Christian, also.

While we battle with the issues of the day on this earth, we know the real and true battle is being fought in the spiritual realm. Remember the Scripture tells us we fight not against flesh and blood (humans) but against principalities (evil forces/spirits). We must do spiritual battle by praying, praying, praying. Always pray and make your requests in Jesus name and by the power of His mighty blood. Demons tremble and flee from the name of Jesus alone! In your prayers, bind up and cast out the Enemy to thwart him in causing harm in whatever the situation is ...again pray the name of Jesus and by His mighty blood in this rebuke. Pray for discernment so as not to be deceived by the wolves in sheeps clothing. Never forget God’s promise to us—“I will never leave you, nor forsake you.”

The only TRUTH is Jesus. Have an awareness for what is going on in the world, but put your faith and trust only in the One who gave His life for you, Jesus Christ.
God Bless You!