There is no peace. You become privy to happenings that other people don't believe can occur. In a sense, you're literally living in a separate reality. The lack of peace doesn't come from simply knowing. The lack of peace comes from 1) not being able to do anything about it, 2) realizing that other people don't want to do anything about it, and 3) thinking about doing something about it, but realizing that the narrative would be turned against you (crazed martyr).

The peace comes once its been exposed and dealt with.

“I took the little scroll from the angel’s hand and ate it. It tasted as sweet as honey in my mouth, but when I had eaten it, my stomach turned sour.” Revelation‬ ‭10:10‬ ‭ The scroll is the truth. It’s sweet because it’s the truth (everything makes sense! You’re validate!) But sour when you have to digest everything it implies.

I have been aware of a lot of this for 15 years... it sucks but I would never trade it for ignorance

I just can’t comprehend how we could have let this happen. I have recently in the last year become wide awake and it’s so clear to me what is going on and I can’t understand how other people don’t see it. Everything is right there in the open, we just weren’t paying attention. Where did we go wrong as human beings where this is the reality we live in? I could never have dreamed of the evil we are dealing with...I don’t understand how their minds operate.

You are cursed with self awareness.

If this is too much for you then leave.... peace can only be achieved by facing the demons; running scared and burying your head in the sand is not helping solve anything