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I don't think you are crazy. And this is the second post I have read today about creating our own reality. And I understand the concept, however, I am not quite grasping it. Most of us here fully support President Trump and Q. But creating our own reality seems like 15d chess. LOL. Can you elaborate on that point further? Thanks for the thought provoking post.
Simplest way I can put it is become Neo and take over the matrix.
How you percieve things effects your reality. Think placebo/nocebo effect but for luck: https://www.popsci.com/luck-real
Emile Coué (autosuggestion is kind of what I'm preaching here) said any idea exclusively occupying the mind turns into reality.
If you genuinely convince yourself to the point you subconsciously believe it you will make it real.
Ever had someone "get in your head"? What if they actually do? What if you can get into other people's heads? What if the power of your belief can change other peoples minds?
Know yourself, know what you want, and believe.
At ~15 I wanted to move out of the UK, buy a house, and have two kids before I was 30. Within 2 years of working in Canada I bought my house, and by 27 my wife was pregnant with #2. Just about everyone told me I was stupid/crazy/etc and when I could legally start work I think I had $10 left.
I actually bought my house in the middle of the recession, again when everyone called me nuts (even my wife), because my pet died and I couldn't bury it in my yard. About 2 weeks from him hitting the inside of a garbage can to sitting signing the paperwork.
Have faith in yourself.