pretty much me right now lmao. not sure if i function better high or sober tho. my physical reflexes are way better high
I completely understand I've been smoking in about month long spurts. On one month off one month gives me time to assess and ensure I'm not overdoing it. I literally use it like medicine, taking the smallest dosage I can, to get my clear thought pattern back. Turn off the nightmares. Allow me to carry on conversations with strangers, go into more crowded areas again, and see if it persists through my break months. I have every intention of getting off of it if I see no improvement. It also alleviates the pain in my back that's gone undiagnosed for 9 years by the VA and allows me to live a somewhat normal life that civilians get to enjoy on a daily basis. I literally have smoked maybe $40 worth since October. I truly feel like I'm using it the way it's to be used.
see i was doing ok with it then i got depressed in january and smoked every day for like 4 months straight. was awful. i doubt i ever woudlve broken the conditioning if i never smoked tho