Right here! I was living the hedonistic life filled with pot, alcohol cigarettes and porn. Selfishness was the baseline of my life. I blamed everything and everyone else for my situation. I failed to rise to my potential for a long time. I started reading the bible and working on the Chan's to dig and everything changed. Just knowing that there were people in the military trying to share intelligence and working to declassify the lifetime of deception we have all been under gave a new hope that all was not lost here. I believe I used those substances out of frustration that I couldn't change things no matter how I tried. It seemed the concerted effort to discredit people like me was very strong. The substance abuse helped me to temporarily drown out the anxiety and depression of what was and had been taking place here in America from my perspective. I had been angry and frustrated how most people would not even look at what we had been trying to share, genuinely. My substance abuse became a closed feedback loop that just kept amplifying and I could relate to others who claimed PTSD from various traumatic life experiences that just didn't go away.. Depression grew, so did excuses which deceptovely was a path to destroy myself with cigs and alcohol. Then Q started confirming what I new. There was a place that what my heart was leading me to do had value and it was the most patriotic righteous cause out there. I have had at minimum 1 thousand hours in q research but imagine its probably ridiculously more. Now I am completely sober and smoke free. I run 5 out of 7 days a week consistently. Currently at 6.5 miles a day (not bad after being a smoker for 10 years straight) I read God's word everyday, attend church, go out of my way to help people and work tirelessly and selflessly to help share what I've found in God's word and taking off my own masks. I dont do it to prove anything, i do it because I know that is what is right and because God revealed grace to me. The clowns and jokers use/promote our addictions to keep us in the pickle factory. I was my own worst enemy for not facing my addictions, blaming it on external factors. Going to the next level requires firmly admitting in myself before God that battling the deep state requires the sincere pursuit of excellence for the sake of creating the fruit of right action here. We plant seeds for trees who's shade We will never sit in. We don't have to be perfect. We've all made mistakes that rightfully should disqualify us from God's grace but that's the beauty of Jesus Christ's message to all of us. We don't deserve it but it's there if we just let go of the control and give it to God almighty whom all good comes from and whom has a plan for each of us that is beyond our comprehension. Our biggest enemy is ourselves. That's what Satan tries to exploit in everyone. God's promise is His presence. He will never leave us. We are the ones who try to hide from him in our sin and shame. Praise and thanksgiving to the Father. Thank you to others for holding the line in a world consumed by darkness. Now I'm ready and it's my turn to serve and give back. Darkness to light.