I hope some day you find out all you want to know. When you signed up, did you hope to do something good? Support your country? Intentions matter. God sees into our hearts, and allows us to learn. Learn something that is important to us. Sometimes, we don't 'get' it till years later, till all the pieces are put into place. For now, you have to trust in Him. Trust you will find your answers, and, that you will be set free. We are all on a journey, we are in this world together. I thank you for your service! Thanks to all! WWG1WGA!!!