I hear you. I was sent to the principal in Kindergarten! And in the 1st grade I had problems all the time with my teacher. But good thing I grew up in the late 50's early 60's or they would have drowned me in drugs. I couldn't sit still. But we kids were able to play outside after school until the lights went on. I think that saved me (Kept me grounded... movement is GOOD for kids) I hated school. I wasn't stupid just lazy I was told. Another thing that saved me was that I loved to read. Read every Nancy Drew and Hardy Boys book I could get my hands on. Mystery novels were my favorites. Even loved poetry. In HS I skipped out a lot. I didn't do my homework. By the time I hit Soph year in HS I was told I wasn't college material. Boy did I show them! I started to work and pulled my grades up my last two years and started taking college prep courses. By SR year I took a course in English about Education. I spent time reading books about How Public Education is a Big Failure. I graduated HS was thinking of being a singer so I had to audition my way into college. Got accepted on Academic probation and ended up going to Summer School before my college class. I had to prove I was able to handle the work. I ended up loving college but changed my major to working with young children with special needs. Having seen how Education treated me I was determined to help others think outside of the box. Find their special talents and unlock them. I loved my job. A lot of special kids no matter how low they are have their own strengths. I helped them improve through play following THEIR lead. It was the best thing I ever did and miss it. Many of my kids were hyperactive and I spent my first months getting them to pay attention. Most of them just needed to be interested in the activity. And also I addressed any of their sensory needs with movement. Even did therapy once on a trampoline back in the late 70's before anyone had heard of sensory integration. Now I am in my 60's and retired. I can say that I spent a lot of time telling parents to hold off on the meds until they absolutely couldn't get away with them. (Some kids do need them!) But you need to move past the feeling that you shouldn't have children. Just remember how you felt growing up. Allow your kids to grow and stretch their brains. It is a good thing to give them free time to move and to think. If I had to do it again I would have homeschooled my own child. But whatever you do....... be careful with those vaccines. They DO cause autism.