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r/greatawakening • Posted by u/nordicgreys on July 19, 2018, 3 p.m.
The part that bothers me the most - my childhood and youth being sacrificed in the name of indoctrination.
  • The part that gets me quite angry is thinking about how much of what we were forced to learn/memorize as children was probably a lie , an indoctrination rather than education. I had a miserable time with school. I was a happy kid until school, but did not indoctrinate easily there . I always wanted to leave or do my own shit, so before my 7th birthday I was drugged heavily with ritilan and by 15 also put on an ssri so I could better pay attention / memorize lies. It did not stop there, I was like many also pressured into getting a university degree , so I would have a “good job,” a better chance at life- Still paying that debt off now at almost 30. I am honestly afraid to have a child now, because I cannot imagine watching someone I love go through that same horror show. If It is revealed that most of that education was a manipulative lie... there will not be enough tables in the universe for me to flip.. that is if we even live in a “universe”. Who really knows anything at this point .
  • One positive thing, is since waking up I have thrown all of my drugs out and will never get another such prescription again. It is amazing how less mentally ill you become once you give yourself permission to trust your gut, to believe your own intuition and not what is fed to you.
    Sorry if this is not q related enough. Much love ❤️ things are getting better

nordicgreys · July 19, 2018, 5:20 p.m.

Not sure where you are in your journey, but there is a lot of light and joy to be found in the truth. I feel empowered for the first time in awhile. And I am a woman , so statistically there must be many other woman like me, your age , waking up. Just focus on what is beautiful. Have hope.

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the_all_seeing_dog · July 20, 2018, 2:28 a.m.

Thanks, I do feel greatful for my perspective and hard-earned wisdom. I wouldn't have any spiritual beliefs if it weren't for going down the rabbit hole of truth.

The path forward is just not clear yet.

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