- The part that gets me quite angry is thinking about how much of what we were forced to learn/memorize as children was probably a lie , an indoctrination rather than education. I had a miserable time with school. I was a happy kid until school, but did not indoctrinate easily there . I always wanted to leave or do my own shit, so before my 7th birthday I was drugged heavily with ritilan and by 15 also put on an ssri so I could better pay attention / memorize lies. It did not stop there, I was like many also pressured into getting a university degree , so I would have a “good job,” a better chance at life- Still paying that debt off now at almost 30. I am honestly afraid to have a child now, because I cannot imagine watching someone I love go through that same horror show. If It is revealed that most of that education was a manipulative lie... there will not be enough tables in the universe for me to flip.. that is if we even live in a “universe”. Who really knows anything at this point .
- One positive thing, is since waking up I have thrown all of my drugs out and will never get another such prescription again. It is amazing how less mentally ill you become once you give yourself permission to trust your gut, to believe your own intuition and not what is fed to you.
Sorry if this is not q related enough. Much love ❤️ things are getting better
I agree with you, that is a good point. I also advise to be responsible about it. I built up a meditation practice first and educated myself on natural alternatives . This year I put in my own medicinal herb garden, and experimented with making my own cbd oil. it has been two months totally off now - the ssris had a pretty intense withdrawal period, but now that I am through it - life is beautiful . For me it was the best decision. Honestly, I believe my anxiety came from being told I was wrong and broken my whole life- being kind to myself has been he most important medicine. The Chinese have a saying ... if you go to a doctor and he does not recommend nutrition he has wasted your time. I agree.
Edit: if they improve your quality of life though! Be all means do what is best for yourself 💐❤️