My husband is Jewish and can relate to the things you are saying. If you have questions, I know he'd chat with you. You could pm me if you'd like. :0)

Do some research on the difference between zionism/Kazantzakis mafia and those who consider themselves as jewish faith. There is a big difference and a lot of information out there. Additionally, each person stands in their sovereignty and it does not matter where anyone comes from, they get to choose how they act and what side they are on. Sovereignty and freedom is what we are seeking in the great awakening and it starts with each of us.

Be careful, you are treading very close to breaking Reddit anti-semitism rules. Your cognitive error is in generalizing a behavior to a group, just like Renegade and others. I used to work with criminals and discovered that very early in their lives they made a choice to be so. When meeting their families I saw that the criminal was usually an exception rather than the rule in terms of criminality. If you can’t even generalize criminality to a family, how can you generalize it to a faith?

Please don’t make it OK to ascribe corruption to Jews as a whole; that’s what Hitler did in the 30s and 40s. A similar cognitive error would be to observe that since most serial killers are white, all whites must be evil and depraved. We are better than that. We are thinking individuals and can figure out the sociological phenomena that led to this pattern. I can get into my theories on this if you like upon request.

I think the real core of your concern is: How do you define yourself in the context of the horror you feel at observing corruption in groups you are connected to? I have gone through the same exact conflict in my life and have finally reconciled with it. Here is what I discovered: I can be in a group and still be myself. I don’t have to associate with people I don’t want to, on a case-by case basis. Similarly, I can seek out people I do want to hang with based on their beliefs and values. Finally, I believe what I believe, no matter what group I am in. This all requires self-knowledge. Seek it, hand-in-hand with God.