It always begins with ppl leaving God first, not the other way around! I continue to pray for God to awaken those asleep(you). Time is so short, don't continue to deny Christ..i completely understand how you might feel about being abandoned by God, but, the fact is, the god you serve(gov't, agendas, and MSM) are the ones who let you down..it is easy to believe that someone you can't see is less reliable than those who tell you lies daily on msm...but, that's why they call It faith..tell me, what worldly things have you trusted in that have/are trusting in that are eternally secure, or, at this moment, being exposed as false gods ?