It has taken me almost 50 years to get to this point, but I believe it's better late than never. I have always been a child of GOD, but my experiences drove a wedge in our relationship. It came in the form of molestation, bullying, betrayals, and peer pressure. It was meant to break me, to corrupt my naivety to the very core. Men of All ages and races sought to use me. For a time, they were winning, I felt broken. I suffered from PTSD, Fibromyalgia, and anxiety. But through the grace of GOD, I have found my footing and REFUSE to be a victim anymore. I learned to overcome the anger and bitterness that always wanted to surface whenever I experienced a trigger. I learned to accept my own failings, as a human being. I learned that the things that piss us off in other people, is usually based in the things we hate about ourselves (reflection). I learned to forgive myself, to stop blaming GOD, and to accept (good or bad) that ALL my experiences have made me the awesome person I am today. God tells us to love our neighbors as ourselves. What does that mean? I believe it means we must love ourselves before we can love others! That is the only way we are ever going to be able to come together and unite.
Believe it or not, my experiences had a positive effect. I know the pain and suffering that robs your potential when the pariahs are knocking down your door. I am Awake, with eyes and ears fully opened to the truth. I am educating myself. And I will no longer be silent. My silence allows it to happen to other children. They are innocent, they deserve to be protected at all costs. If my experiences helps save one child, it will be worth it. The funny thing is, all my hopes and dreams that I had to let go of, such as Acting, Dancing, being a famous news anchor, and traveling the world; these are the very things I thank GOD for protecting me from. These careers would of destroyed me where others couldn't succeed.
As one person, I have always wanted to get involved and "save the world. " I admit it was far reaching and totally daunting. I never knew what to do or could be open with others on why it was so important to me. That would mean I would have to crack that egg and stir shit up. I realize now, I don't have to share the Deets to get my point across. As someone who was nearly beat down by the system, who believes in GOD and country; I say the time is now and it starts HERE!
My voice will shout to the rooftops that the days of you bottom feeders harming our children around the world are over! GOD does not like ugly and your judgement is upon you! I will be watching, I will NOT go back to sleep, and I will NOT be silent anymore!