I used to think people that would say that were lying. Honestly, I used to think people were just like me, and thought like me, which in itself is extremely selfish. I was never really selfish in the sense of hording things. It was more of an emotional selfishness. I withheld care. I hid it well, but it had to benefit me to matter to me.
I was the worst when it came to Christians. I despised them. Maybe deep down it was jealousy. I wanted happiness. They seemed to have it, so I made them “fakes” to justify my hatred.
Jesus changed that, but he also showed me how important it is for us all to be who we are. He doesn’t like conformity.
He compares us to a body. All parts matter. Some are similar. Some are very different. He pretty much told me I was part of the ass, but did it with humor. But it was also him saying,”I kind of need you to stay who you are, let’s just heal the damage.”
Now I see great value in the Sunday school teachers, but I also see great value in people like me. We’re the broken ones that are healed enough to go back into the darkness.
I’m at home in the darkness, but it doesn’t own me any more. That makes us valuable, especially in these days. All parts matter.
When we stop trying to clean ourselves up, and just be, things change.
I am fighting this fight to hopefully hand over the land to those that aren’t selfish. Flanked by those that know the darkness of selfishness.
I see something beautiful on the horizon. It’s the first time I’ve had a ‘glimpse of the dawn’ in a long time. Something fantastic is unfolding, but as the old saying goes, ‘It’s always darkest before the dawn”. We’re there now.