Anon, check out gateway experience, hemi-sync.
I have ptsd, and can't meditate or hypnotized (or so I thought) had good results with discovery tapes from monroe institute. They are on torrents.
They are connected to CE-5, and more info can be found on the web and in the CIA reading room, they did an analysis and assessment of this process that trump got the cia to finally publish along with the jfk stuff (technically obama declassified it all, but they where slow walking and blocking everything) and is in their foia reading room.