I will be totally honest…
I'm a newfag. I'd never heard of Q, 8kun or patriots before this year.
But I was interested in aliens my whole life, since I was five years old I had telepathic "dialogues" with extra terrestrials.
Yeah, maybe I'm crazy, thats why I never truly believe in them. Some part of me was always doubting, thinking that was making this all up.
I don't know how I could make up evil aliens in churches, evil families, or understand God and the human mind so young.
I know no one here will believe me, I don't believe in myself. When I first read Q saying "trust yourself" I cried. And I tried hard for months to find this place. I found mountain of wisdom before Q research. I read everything I found about kek/ra.
I had no one to talk about this. I don't have a messiah complex, I'm not special, I just tried so hard to find an answer, I cried for so many nights praying for an explanation until one night someone did start to answer.
And still to this day, after so many coincidences I can't still fully believe in everything I know…