You are never alone dear anon, cast this negativity away and remember it is only an experience to learn. It will pass just like everything - except Truth and Light - passes. Here is a nice picture that will help with your goal.
For those suffering from pain, try this:
https://prepareforchange.net/2017/11/27/command-pb-stardust-new-pleiadian-protocol-to-ease-physical-pain-drastically-reduce-suffering-on-this-planet/
Very easy! If you don't believe this - try it still. Spread to others in need!