I could use some prayer. My thoughts have become difficult to follow. Hard to pray, forget how to at times. Trying to teach family how but it seems almost impossible to pray with them. which is very bothersome. I have also found that I need to pray differently than I learned. I am just talking rather than praying now. Not sure what to call who I am talking to, the word God or Lord or what ever may be wrong, or directed to the wrong entity. Sometimes I feel like I am praying to myself for my own forgiveness.. other times it feels like someone is listening, and responding. But overall I definitely need some prayer, It feels like I have discovered some things that may be a step or two ahead of most others here and lets put it this way Im starting to feel like everything that is happening right now is the direct result of my own questioning of reality, and that had I only not dont that we may have all had 'normal lives'
and if theres anyone there who has figured it out.. does us figuring all of it out undo creation?