I have been an alky most of my adult life. I finally quit for good. The trick is to stay sober long enough for your brain chemicals to come back to equilibrium.
That can take 3-6 months, but…
NO ON TELLS US THIS. Thats why people go sober for a few days/weeks, and are miserable, and say "what's the point?"
IT TAKES AWHILE FOR YOUR BRAIN CHEMISTRY TO COME BACK TO NORMAL, especially if you're like me and quickly get hooked on alcohol fast, and it goes off the rails.
That means my brain is wired in a way that gets hooked to it fast. I have friends that have no desire to ever drink. For me, it's like crack.
What happened to me was that I was sober for a few months, bored, but sticking with it. A couple 1-2 day relapses, then back on the wagon for a month, etc.
When I got 2.5 months under my belt something crazy happened. I had 2 days of pure misery. All my anger, sadness, fear, pain, etc was just flooding my brain, like a demon clawing at me, hanging on for dear life, last play of the game.
And then the next day I woke up, and for the first time in my life, I had a funny thought and laughed within 5 seconds of being awake.
I felt… different.
I just stood in front of the mirror and thought, "what is this?"
I felt BRAND NEW, but MORE MYSELF THAN IVE EVER FELT.
As a kid I had social anxiety and depression. As a teen I found an escape - liquor. My 20s and half my 30s I was a drunk.
I think during that time, I matured and came into my own, but I didn't notice, and never took the time to get comfortable in my own skin, learn to manage my emotions, and figure out what I really enjoyed in life….
BECAUSE I WAS EITHER DRINKING OR HUNGOVER.
Everyday. You have to hang in there, and it might get real bad for a few days. It's always darkest before the dawn. T
HATS WHATS HAPPENING HERE ON THIS BOARD.
We are all pushing through the dark, the winter solstice, the cabal is fighting for it's miserable life.
Your demons are doing the same. The fight Q and Trump and all of the Patriots are fighting is the same fight going on in your own mind, which is really your SOUL, but your consciousness is limited by your physical human form (brain), in this part of your journey.
Many people have reported what I described. In fact, reading their stories helped me hang in there until that day of AWAKENING.
I felt awake, and relaxed, energized, clear headed….and the best part?
I FUCKING LIKED MYSELF FOR THE FIRST TIME MAYBE EVER.
I didn't have to do anything. No huge achievements or hitting the gym everyday or whatever. I wasn't getting laid at the time. My life kinda sucked. But I just…liked myself as if that was my natural state.
That glow diminishes a little, but doesn't go away. And once you're out of the whole, you have the energy to make some moves - maybe get on some mild medication, start a new fitness routine, meet some girls (or whatever you're into). Look for a new job.
Vince Lombardi said: "Fatigue makes cowards of us all."
Our demons drain us. Whether its guilt, regret, worry, thinking that you're ugly or bad or whatever…Demons may or may not be externally real, but the effect is the same. Your energy is drained, your mind becomes weak, and you don't have the STAMINA to exercise your will.
Whenever I was getting the urge to drink, I went for a walk and listened to podcasts or youtube on my headphones. Thats how I learned about the cabal and developed my awareness of their games, made connections, and understood the chessboard to some degree.
I know it's gay, but there's a great sub reddit called Stop Drinking. Go in there and check it out. Thats where I saw the accounts of people hanging in there long enough for the Awakening.
They recommended a book (and had a link to download for free but I don't see it now. Maybe I'm missing it): This Naked Mind by Annie Grace.
GET IT AND READ IT. Just reading that book alone got me to quit long enough for my Awakening.
You've been fucking with your brain chemistry for years. You've been feeding a demon for years.
It's gonna take some time. And when you get out of this, you'll be stronger than ever.
Then you can help others, and you can live a life you are proud of.
Many people had to suffer and die for this fight to come to a head. Not to mention the billions suffering through economic struggle for sooo long. Don't stop now! We are RIGHT THERE.
We are WINNING. Stay in the fight with us to see the results! 2018 Is gonna be awesome. You just need a little more time, I promise.