I've been in a dark place over the past year brothers, but fortunately I feel more drawn to Christ now than I ever have and that's spurred me into a lot of self improvement. That being said, I live in an area (and household) that is staunchly anti-Catholic while every day I draw closer to the church. I may be moving in the coming weeks, but either way I struggle to see what sort of future I might have in this world and have been fighting through a long process of discerning what is the right path for me and what is mere selfish temptation. Pray for me that I might be rid of all these contradictions.