Anon, sometimes things break up, which aren't meant to be.
In my early 20s I thought I met the love of my life. Later I found out that it wasn't mutual and I was just a stopgap. I was heartbroken for many years.
Luckily we tried sex only two times and God intervened hard both times, which was very embarrassing for me as a man. But this way I stayed pure.
Now, 15 years later, when I met who God possibly intended as my real companion, it all became clear, why the past happened this way.