I've sought him, and I haven't found him. I've prayed, I've fasted, I've poured my heart out to him for years and He is no where to be found. Every time I've thought I've poured out everything in my cup to him, I still find myself desperate enough for his heart to cry out to him with everything I have. But now I feel completely empty. I have nothing left. I literally feel squeezed completely dry of any energy I have left. I am closing the verge of suicide. I must have my Jesus. I need my Lord so much. I love him so much. But I'm still a sinner. I still carry my guilt. I've sought so hard. I've looked for him for so long. I cant do it anymore. Please save me Lord Jesus, rescue me from my sins so I can do your will and obey you and glorify you. I hate that I was born. At this point, I only want to die. Please pray for me. I'm so needy and desperate. I physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually cannot go on any further. I am completely sucked dry of hope. Please Lord Jesus come quickly.