The perceived embarrassment is satan trying to fool you into keeping yourself damned. You may feel embarrassed, but after confession you will feel better like a weight removed from your shoulders.
Besides, is hell really worth saving yourself from embarrassment?
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And I just said a prayer to counteract your little "spell". Whom ever taught you magick is a very bad teacher.
To pray literally means to ask. When you pray to God, you are just asking Him something. Like a child that asks his/her father for food or a hug. Some people ask for good health, some people pray for others (as Jesus tells us to do).
Matthew 5: 43-45
>“You have heard that it was said, ‘You shall love your neighbor and hate your enemy.’ But I say to you, Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, so that you may be sons of your Father who is in heaven. For he makes his sun rise on the evil and on the good, and sends rain on the just and on the unjust
Is luxury associated with greed or gluttony? What kind of luxury are you attached to? Physical riches or just rich and extravagent food? Or both?
If it is food the solution is easy. Go on a fast for a couple of days and try to limit yourself to only one meal a day. If it is physical riches, im not too familiar with but what embed related suggests is to give.
Remember, God is the one that gives you everything you own but He also gave it to you so you may freely give to others as well. Give and share your luxuries with your fellow seminarians.
I believe your seminary director might require you to live like a homeless person for a period of time in order to help you understand what it means to be poor in spirit. For there's is the kingdom of God.
I'll be praying for a brave man like yourself. God love you. Also, consult your spiritual father as he would know more than an anon like me.
The Freemasons are nothing but pure evil. Pure evil responsible for various bloody revolutions. Please, don't join them.
Please read up the works of Albert Pike (a 33rd degree mason revered by the masons) and you will see the parallels between Freemasonry and Jewish kabbalism.