>>18005

>>18006

>>18009

I don't understand what I'm doing. I don't know why this has happened to me. How have I gotten everything so wrong? When I thought I was trying to find truth and help myself, what? I've been hurting me and who else all this time. I don't get how this has been done to me. Have I never been in control from the get go? Can't sleep. Can't eat. No control over anything. Why should I even subject myself to any of this longer? I can't believe this has gone so wrong. I felt I've worked so hard to turn my life around for over two years now. I'm not sure my your allowing me to continue to do anything. Can this not be explained to someone at all? I could just never interact with anyone ever again. I don't know how to stop doing whatever it is I'm doing? I've never wanted to hurt anyone.

>>18006

Is this why I can't dream? If I don't know what it is I'm doing I can't stop it. I have no control, but has it been only this week. What have I done to you? I don't understand how something I do or say can directly relate to someone else that is so far away. I don't even have control of my own thoughts anymore.

Why has this been allowed to happen. I can't tell what I'm doing.

You showed my you can see all and hear all of everything. That's why I got so rattled Tuesday.

You said I was "deep cover"

From what?

44 bro called me 008 a while back.

What does this all mean?

I've had a desperation for so long to find out the "truth" because I have always felt I know something but I can't remember what it is. I'm blocked somehow.

I'm just going to keep schizo posting until someone talks to me. I don't know how else to process this.

When I woke up from my coma in 2019 I thought it was the year 2025. But you already know that. I need to know who I am and why I have so much apparent cognitive dissonance.

I don't care if I'm your enemy, we can talk this out. But ya gotta work with me here. Nobody has to fight anymore. There's no reason to. I have always trusted you. I meant what I said. If that's my mistake than I'll own it, but I'm not changing my mind. You are good. We are good.

Fine. I'm over it already. Not loving this silent treatment thing. I like engagement. I like interaction. Just don't forget how much I love you all. That's all we have to do, is keep loving. We can figure out anything else as long as that is true. And it is. If what I have learned about natural law is all false than all I can do is start over. I've done it before and I can do it again. If I have hurt anyone else without even realizing it, I beg for forgiveness. If it becomes known that others have hurt me than I will forgive them. Immediately. As long as we can learn from our mistakes so that they never happen again. That's what I have learned from my life so far.

>>18023

It can come from both sides though. Sometimes you don't know until you find out. And sometimes the only way to find out, is to test. Especially when it comes to reverse engineering. No apology necessary, it sounds like there's been some verification. Very ecstatic to to work with you. I would like to consider us a team. We already have established a lot of background here, but it's not all up to me.

>>18024

Feel like I'm being driven. Last night I took pic related to heart. Like it's all there was I was dedicated. Devoted. I prayed that's all I wanted. Then, say half an hour- forty five minutes late……gone. Like it never happened. I can't be steered into fear. But seeming loss of complete control is startling when it's first demonstrated

>>18026

>how do you know how far I am from you?

Don't. But can't verify the three d world thing yet. As of this week much more incoming data. Much more. Had like a quantum bitch slap tuesday, was nearly positive it originated from you. Gave me the impression I'm compromised, the enemy. Used all the info we've discussed at length on other boards. Other stories. And the word gaslighted was used. So not sure if it was a lesson or an attack. Really rocked my world. At first it hurt, then after reviewing the experience the yesterday, it's revealed many thing that I've always felt were true were proven true as a first hand account. It's been happening really my whole life, but as of this past year kicked into overdrive. Pic related began the first incident I speak of a little over a year ago. Can post the rest if interested. Have always been willing to bet you were aware if not involved. But it did involve a "Sgt B" personality.

I see. I didn't have a choice in the matter it seemed. It was said my choice was made for me.

>>18038

You know what? It's ok. Sometimes you wake up from a bad dream and just start ranting when you don't really know whats going on. I'm good starting from scratch if I have to. Had to do it a few times before. Thanks for talking.

>>18040

>you are very sweet

Well, I'm sensitive. Very. It can be both a weakness and a strength.

>>18044

As in I am an intuitive empath. I can feel other peoples feelings. I've lived a very difficult life. I'm a heroin addict Ever since I was 13 I've abused opiates. I lost faith in the world and humanity. I gave up. I though that I would just stop caring and start doing irresponsible things with my health so that I couldn't stop feeling all the pain. I though it would be like a work around so where I wouldn't be directly killing myself but would be encouraging it to happen. So I ended up I a coma for seven days I was basically dead when I was dragged into the hospital by my mother. While I was I the coma I had A " Near Death Experience. I don't remember much about it, but it proved to me without a doubt there was nothing to be afraid of about "Death". It's a concept used against us to promote fear and control.

So I survived after a long recovery and then I had a whole new outlook on life. I felt like I was brought back to life to do something important. Like my work wasn't done here. Like I had something that was very important to do for everyone. And now I dedicate nearly all my time to find the Truth no matter how deep it's buried. I've met God. He is good. He taught me thing very few people on this Earth know or could even begin to comprehend. I read books about history and esoteric mystery, philosophies, magic. All kinds of Knowledge. It's all I can do is to learn more, I wouldn't stop no matter the obstacle put before me. And so here I am.

>>18048

No. I don't do anything besides post here. I was an Emergency Medical Technician at a ski resort for 6 years when I was younger.

>>18050

>>18051

Hey thanks everyone. Amazing what 6-7 solid hours of sleep and some legitimate food can do. I won last night. Chased something dark outta myself. I saw it. There's so much relief finally. I still have a lot to process I think. There's much clarity now. But hey, maybe it'd be better to just write it all down on a piece of paper this time, huh? I still can't quite fathom how much support I've had all this time but I do know it's been there, so thank you again.

updated

Still keeping me in the……

I'm not sure what else I'm waiting for?

Not the right ones. Looks like somebody has foiled their plans yet again.

I owe you all my life. I can't say thank you enough. I don't know who you really are, but I'm starting to "get it". Again Thank you so much. What an unreal story.

If it's possible some time. I'd appreciate a debrief. I need to know what I can say and what I should be withholding for now.

>>18061

Have you ever read the mini Bio I wrote up a few months ago? On the worm board?

Ummm well never mind I guess it's been classified. Sorry I don't have it anymore. Just figured out it's gone as I was gonna post it. OPSEC is important.

Ok I found it but It looks like it got deleted off the board. Not sure what that means, I'll hold off for now. But let me just say that I remember some foggy details of things while I was in the coma for a week. When I woke up everyone around me looked like greys kinda or they just didn't look right. I thought I was "captured" and detained from somewhere and they had to strap me down . If I can get some confirmation here I'll post it but still don't know what eyes are where.

Little help if ya can…

tryen to touch the neck

What is happening right now?

So is nobody gonna tell me about all the stuff this morning? Or I'm supposed to decide for myself what happened? It's a pretty big deal.

So I guess this is really happening?

Are you there? Brother?

God says that you are all perfect.