>>11035713
>Because it constantly haunts me
why? i'm asking this seriously. my father choked me to unconsciousness โ and i looked right in his eyes and saw that the sadistic fuck was enjoying it, quite thoroughly in fact. imagine that, enjoying seeing your kids face turn blue and eyes roll back and lose consciousness. i could go on and on. there was like 10 years of it. but, that was a long, long time ago. i rarely think about it, unless i don't keep myself busy. i know its still there buried somewhere deep inside bc sometimes when i get a new shrink and try to describe it, i get choked up. but, as long as i don't stir the hornet's nest, then i don't get stung.
why don't you just go accomplish things, get laid, learn computer programming, play guitar, go swimming, run a marathon etc? lots of people had really fucked up things happen to them and they go on living. its not that hard, really. it just takes time
>>11035727
>Why she's fucked up?
idk. definitely revolves around her husband, and probably before that daddy issues. pretty sure she's a masochist and i wouldn't doubt if she were a cutter in the past, or something like that
i have a feeling i was too nice. she wanted to be abused and i didn't do that (except sexually, lol). she kept saying "i'll hurt you" but i know this wasn't about my feelings. it was about hers
>You did good with the response
thanks. there was nothing else i could do. she was locked and loaded. i actually had a lot of experience with chicks before i went hikkikomori a few years ago. i was chad-tier
>Divorced? Don't tell me she's a single mother too
no kids. didn't even know she was divorced until i was already out with her on the date. it was a big deal, though, because i found out her last name and she got really embarrased and said that she hadn't changed back to her maiden name yet. she claims the divorce was like 2 yrs ago, though
>You make out of this too much of a deal
yeah, but i'm fucking bored. i just moved to a new city and she's the first friend i made. also, i spent a lot of time chatting with her before going out, so i guess i had a lot invested in a way. but, yeah, i mean fuck it. hopefully another broad will come along as quickly as she did
>Your problem was you dated a divorced/married woman
at my age, that's pretty common too, anon
>Date younger ones
once you get above a certain age (and weight) that becomes difficult. also, my whole life was destroyed bc i'm a TI, so i can't lean on the whole good career thing, which i would have been able to if not for the "gangstalking"