I recently gave up the Christ-cuck pill. Being an ardent National Socialist, what I had read about paganism seemed pretty congruent so I ordered the prose and poetic edda, thinking I would get some bad ass European archetypes centered in duty, honour, loyalty and respect, as is the NatSoc way. The shit is fucking ridiculous rubbish, its as bad as Christianity. Is the future a religion of race and the universal order? Is it spiritual National Socialism? Have I gone about this all wrong? Should I be reading Evola or someshit… I can't see my only true spiritual guide, Hitler, reading about Thor dressing up like Freya and going to marry a giant and them bashing his skull in at the last second and thinking to himself, yep this the spiritual teachings of the Reich. Is the extent of my spirituality always going to be a vague National Socialist, racialist, hiterist Diesm?
Perhaps… even if I was not reading it literally, it's still sort of cringe.
I find National Socialism to be spiritual… it is not suicidal for the sake of the afterlife like Christianity.. so it is not too idealistic, it is not all based on what I can get like Communism and Capitalism… so its not too materialistic… it's completely based in the beauty that is only possible through the Nordic races and the ideal of love for your own people.. its truly beautiful, it really does satisfy my spiritual cravings
However….
I will find it and I will read it. I still would like to know the stories of my forbears.
Tbh I think I am going to read Lightning and the Sun and the Last Avatar.