> We don't have the depth of esoteric and mystical experience that exists in the East
Speak for yourself! I'm a follower of Jesus! Prior to that I experienced "esoteric and mystical" from the age of 7 years old. I've dealt with the "supernatural" in the most negative context ...and even then ...I ALWAYS "knew", "sensed" The eyes of The Most High God on me...ALWAYS! I turned to Jesus 28 years ago...and the demonic flees!
My first thought is that you think too highly of yourself...that you're very impressed with yourself!
Repent and study your Bible! God wrote it! Scientifically proven!