There were around 3 times in this lurker anon's life where I had to face the darker parts of myself. Those times were turning points. Once at 13 I almost died from drinking too much at a party, because of a liability issue, the parents who supplied the alcohol and drugs said I was the one who brought everything…13, recovering from an overdose and I had to face the fact that two people who I thought were the coolest parents in the world blamed their actions on me. Then as a young twenty something I was partying way too much throwing my life away watching my friends move on, I once again faced myself in humiiliation and failure, raised my hands to the heavens and asked God to help me. I then had the resolve to turn around in a 180 degree turn and completely transform my life. In 2013, my life fell apart as the person I planned to spend the rest of my life with just decided to throw me away. I was devastated, back to that dark place, blaming myself, there must be something wrong with me. However after it was a done deal, divorce final I continued on as a single adult, found a cash job went to get my Bachelor's degree got inolved in my new community (still to this day) and have my youngest child at home who has a disability and having been homeschooled since March. I do not tell you these details for any other reason except that no matter how dark or hopeless things seem, life sometimes surprises you or the Universe finally delivers that which was meant for you all along. I achieved more in my life in the last 7 years than in the 15 previous (life of my marriage to the ex). I visited other countries, worked at fun jobs, helped my fellow citizens and I couldn't feel more love and gratitude for others. The virus, the violence fro the Antifa members posing as BLM'ers though I hurt or the people and communities being destroyed I do not feel despair or sadness because of their actions, I feel grateful that the ugly that it is is being brought into the light. So many times in my life at what I "perceived" was the end of everything I thought I wanted or needed, it was like I had to give up these things, people and ways of thinking to get to the next level. So when I see what I see, I know in my heart that I am not the only one who is seeing it. We may be the Silent Majority but that does not mean we are blind and we are not doing things behind the fake news orchestrated narratives with their cameras and there dirty rehearsed reports night after night.

I can say to never give into the doubt fear or despair, hope and love will always lift you above the chaos and evil and allow you to see the light of the sun on the horizon. We have a battle before us no doubt…but we will win….we are the good shepards of this battlefield.

Godspeed, God Bless and WWG1WGA