This day to day grind is an illusion meant to teach our spirit life lessons so it can grow and advance. We are eternal light beings made of Gods light / love. Start looking for it in yourself & in others. Meditate / listen focus on God's light, keep trying to connect and find your true purpose for being here.
Here is a great 45 minute introduction. gets interesting about 3 minutes n.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yAh1M31UEs4