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>>10209854
Purist?
Excuse me, miss, bitch, ma’am, (however you prefer), there's a big difference between what you perceive as celibacy and something that you MAY or MAYNOT be aware of. First of all, if you are, thanks. If you aren’t let me inform you only because this may actually come to some assistance for those of us who are afflicted with an addiction to sexual self-punishment and reciprocal revenge via ruination, obfuscation of infiltrated inoculations, ‘honeypussing,’ and what I like to call, [HUNTING].
Funny, if you actually paid, even the slightest amount of attention, you’d realize that Q has subtly hinted at this type of behavior taking place. If you RE:READ drops, you may pick up on it with eyes to see.
Look, I am far from a holier than thou condescending perspective. In fact, I don’t deserve some of the second, third, fourth chances that have blessed my existence in various forms. Despite my selfish behaviors in the past, especially pertaining to sex, masturbation, orgasms, female objectification (and it’s mirror also rearing it’s ugly head now, if you just look), and drugs. They all kind of go hand in hand, so to avoid being cliché I’ll leave it at that. I am ashamed of some of my actions, while others I’ve come to accept as a part of human nature and it’s condition in this current era. What I’m attempting to get at is, I was a fuck up, and I still am, I’m just tired of being alone, and a slave to my body’s hyper-stimulated sense of sexuality in it’s highly corrupted and fragmented state. So as a means of trying to attempt and experiment with my ability to remain stable with total self control, and not give in to my urges.
This doesn’t mean I’ve turned into a supreme, bible-thumping, bullshit artist, with an immense ability to deceive my interactions with ultra-self-righteous tooting of my own horn, whilst simultaneously continuing to pillage like the womanizer I ‘really am.’
I am truly as celibate as those mean women who call themselves feminists make fun of me for being. I’m so fucking pathetic for not being the man I should’ve been, with all the money, toys, houses, and superficial fake power a douchebag can get his dirty, grubby, cum encrusted, paws on.
Although, my vice ultimately ended up as a substitute for real women, and seriously the real women I wanted to be with, trashy, self-deprecating, father hating, semen addicted, megawhores. Imagine thinking that my ultimate prize would be able to marry a pornstar, but instead of fucking all of the time, we’d be able to do all the stuff real lovers do, like camping under the stars, going to the beach, playing video games and smoking pot, jamming out on guitars, keyboards, and drums, maybe even cuddle together under a blanket, with some popcorn, and a marathon of all our favorite movies, taking turns in one epic binge of playlist.
Instead, my girlfriend became my computer. My dates were on porn servers, my good times became epic moneyshots in the wee hours of the morning, imagining a real woman was with me, even putting on panties to simulate a female’s presence in order to negate the unbearable loneliness. People talk about being shadowbanned, well I have been love-banned for too long. So as an experiment, I wanted to see what would happen if I disobeyed my body, and defied those urges, whilst remaining in the most horniest states of ever had the privilege to experience. It was a torture test that went completely out of control.
I’m still winning. Even more so, now I realize what sex magick really is, and it’s not what Crowley was talking about, but rather it’s all based on intent, POSITIVE INTENT.
Sorry about calling you a cunt, or a bitch. You’re probably smokin’ hot amazingly gorgeous, bitchin’…but not a bitch. 😊 I’m not just another proud boy faggot incel; I’m a real man, with a real manly desires, but I’m not going to bitch out to them anymore. If that frustrates you because you envy my willpower, don’t, because I just got it, and it’s fucking awesome! Yet what I had to go through in order to PROVE IT TO MYSELF FIRST, was the most, difficult thing I’ve done regarding sexuality in my whole life. The only things I can compare it to is attempting to kick opioids, which is another problem I personally deal with everyday. I’ll put it to you this way, Satan wanted me to be the world’s first real hetero-nerd pornstar, but God wanted me to be a man, with true character.
God’s plan is way more comfy, comfy AF.
Peace, FemAnon or’ qunt’ for short 😉