Anon's ignore this please, responding to either my insanity or Q and if I'm banned for it then I'll know it was my insanity but it's definitely not for most people to read.

Outside of the obvious lawsuit I am meant to be included in, perhaps as the "face" of it even since my recollection of events does imply, and I can imagine an infinite number of varieties of what the signs I keep seeing mean. Whether or not anyone anywhere wants me to do anything at any point in the near or long term future…. and so I test the waters with this. Perhaps it's all a delusion and I'll even be banned for considering it? Let's see.

Also, thank you for helping me. "You wouldn't" - I don't know if I dreamed up that being a response or not to what I posted but if I did just imagine that was a response to me saying what I said, well, I'd rather not be corrected on it. It meant a lot to me and is about 50% of why I'm even testing the waters now because that's such a "me" response… or at least the me from some time ago.

The idea helping others and embracing my philosophical side is the most appealing of all possible scenarios and to see some sort of path asking me to walk it is intriguing and of course I would no matter the scale of it. I do have convictions, rusty now as no one but me and 22 owls ever seemed to think they were anything special, but I know them and if someone is actually asking me to do that, then yes, that's the answer. I still need to work things out but yes I'd be happy to do that. I so often see 20 different patterns so the odds I got the right one this time… well, I'm positive there's something strange going on lately around me. Why not be optimistic and assume it's some kind of life-dream calling kind of thing being asked for me to step up to the plate of?