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…………………. is this what you were trying to get me to realize Q?

I was going to do a post about over exposure meanings and blocking the light and various angles if anything… but this cow and me… I don't even know why it was ever a thing, I remember it was a bad joke and I do not remember who started it. Yet it is indeed tied to my past. As is Alan Dershowitz. And I am Alan as you have confirmed. So OK I finally got back to digging and I remember that I would say something…. when I thought nobody could see… it's only just now hitting me what it means that I'm an "Extra Terrestrial" i.e. a malformed sheep - ram'd the cam and all that…. it's not easy for me to comprehend the gravity of it but you've been helping me I know so hey, I assume this is connected and I noticed Dershowitz's career coincides with my trip to Hell - and he's Harvard ilk and "It's happening here" which of course ties it to that college…. and the big and little "Billy's and the Big and Little James Owl's…. yea yea… and even the shirts? my god…. what the hell was I to these people? It's getting more and more absurd.

I get a sense these pics on her Instagram are tied to scouting new kids for new "Aliens"? - I also feel like I'm seeing a bigger picture but it's hard to know how much I'm imagining. I did say "I love you" to the mirror yesterday and today…. I'll do it until I believe it Q but I can't force that. I'm still very angry with myself for the distractions and now that I understand the scope of what was counting on it it's very hard to move past it now. I know what they did now and yet I still made choices along the way that I didn't have to. Nobody's perfect I think, I screwed up at times but when it mattered I made the right choices. And from now on and for as long as I can I'll keep doing so.

This pic only people who know the story would even get it, you want me to focus on any particular part? I get the feeling I can connect the rest of the dots now but I don't know which order is best or even how to begin to explain things now that I realize these connections. It does certainly explain why you were helping me so much. Did anyone even like the things I wrote? I was only depressed cause I thought they were just making fun of me but maybe other people did like it…. well confused is an understatement now. I'm at least getting better.