ok I got it. I'll make the post. I suspect there's a lot of legal reasons now why it has to be me. I had to solve the whole damn thing and I haven't yet but I'm close enough that if I make a very big post connecting every dot I know it might "shatter the darkness" I feel like a lunatic following my instincts here and yet I haven't been banned for these posts so I'll keep on going and see where this train of thought leads me. Maybe it's somewhere I want to be for the first time.

I'll do it in a big AB post first and then piecemeal here.

It appears that while my ideas and philosophy were a joke to evil people someone out there got inspired by what I believed and tried to help. I am most confused now about whether or not I was good at things because they all lied so how could I know? But then I realize it doesn't matter, I should just do what I want to do and as I have believed - even until death following one's dream is a noble thing. Somewhere along the line I got a little off course, but it's not too late.

If I'm reading anything wrong I'm sorry, I keep thinking it's madness and yet then another connection that solves a mystery falls in my lap. I realize one more thing and realize that I'm probably supposed to be talking about it and all the people telling me I'm crazy are bad people who know I think I'm crazy and so they silence me this way. So instead I'll do what I feel is right, but it's going to be a few hours to put this together.