Morning fellow widowed anon. As long as you don't broadcast, you can listen to HAM radios without a license. It could never hurt, as you are allowed to use one in an emergency.
If you still need other items like food, water, protection, gold, silver I would skip purchasing it.
FL is full of fellow anons. You have lots of frens there. Keep the faith. It will all work out.
God Bless.