Hang in there, anon. Most of what comes in from the outside world is an illusion or a manipulation of reality. It is not nearly as bad as it seems unless you allow it to become more real than it deserves to be.
Ignore 90% of the voices here. You know which ones to disregard. No one said this period of awakening would be easy–in fact, it should not be. But you are MILES ahead of the dim sheep who have no idea that they're being brainwashed. We'll celebrate the end result as patriots, together.