Hang in there fren!
I hear ya though!
Same here.
At least your home isn't surrounded by fires - I hope not - or burned down. Mine is now surrounded, just a few miles from my home and now I'm surrounded by all sides except north. I was forced to evac and currently at fam that is against POTUS and Rs. So, I can't talk about Politics, No Bible/God, and definitely can't talk about the fire. Yeah, that's why I'm there cause I'm close to losing everything I have due to the largest Ca fire in history but I can't talk about it - particularly I'm shut down immediately when I mention all the arsonists they're catching. I haven't even brought up who they are just that it's happening. They don't want to hear it. Sometimes I just want to go outside and scream!!