Thank you bkker
hi
I want to kms
because
This is a dream, or something
and I want to wake up
like Inception or Vanilla Sky
So far I just roll with it
But when faced with stress or boredom, it's in the back of my mind: this is not real.
Mostly I forget and distract myself, read the news, react, play chess
But sometimes weird mysterious shit happens that makes me question reality. Basically uncanny coincidences or synchronicity. Then I want to crack the code and understand how this reality really works, but I never am able to, it is always just mental masturbation and rabbit holes until I forget about the uncanny incident and go back to normal life. Sometimes I'll remember and just want to kms because I strongly believe this shit isn't real.
look
I'm just writing this because
maybe you can relate
for example
earlier today i was reading some forum or something
a user commented something like "open the box of pandora" and I stopped and thought, that is odd, they must not speak English.
Basically it stuck out in my psyche. If they'd just said "pandora's box" I probably would've not even registered it.
Now I'm here and the title of this thread says something about pandora's box.
This is strange coincidence of events.. Normally never even see pandora's box mentioned but now it is twice in a day.
No higher meaning probably, but it is the repetition that demonstrates to me that things are connected nonlinearly
This is very simple example but when things like this happen more and more, it really breaks down the mind. It is like, "Hello, wake up! The world is not how you view it"
It is like The Lego Movie. Normal guy living mundane life, then stumbles upon magical hole in the ground that radically changes his life.
[I'm a] Man here living life and there is coincidence, synchronicity, reaching out from the abyss and grabbing my attention.
Man's like: holy fuck
this is a dream
How the fuck is he supposed to go back to normal shit when he sees the dream?