You have to get ahold of yourself man, you dont need a woman or a bottle. You need to get healthy and take charge of yourself, your life. All that will come to you, but the drinking and replacing one lost mate with a quick replacement will not help you. Check yourself into the hospital, get sober. Find a reason to live that only involves you. I was you…..it gets better but sex and liquid band aids wont help. RISE UP.