> I'm not as strong as you are, in fact I'm pretty weak
Bull shit, you have more in you than you know, you just haven't faced the worst yet. I'm no better than you anon, if I can make it through the shit I've been through, so can you.
Life really is what you make it.
Happiness is a choice, focus on what's bad in your life and that's what you'll see. Focus on your blessing and you'll look for the good in life.
No one was going to come and make my life better, no one could. I didn't get to the bad place I was at in a day, and I wasn't going to wave a wand and make it glorious in a day, but I put on foot in front of the other. Small steps, day by day I worked to make my life better, before I knew it my days were filled with happiness. Go make your life better, one day at a time.
Right now, Pray, I'm serious, Pray right now and I'll be Praying for you anon. But you must put forth the effort to make your life better, do your part, keep Praying and God will walk you out of the dark place you're in right now.