When I see something that sounds like it's pointed to me I equally get more certain I'm crazy and more certain that I need to be doing more. I could talk but I don't want to see those tapes really and I am unsure how accurate my memories are, I thought I would sign some papers obviously and say what needs to be said to whomever anyone asks me to say them to. So long as I don't find it a morally reprehensible person of course like Orpah.

Yet who would I even talk to? Well… I'm sure I'll look again and I'll either go back to sleep for a few more days or suddenly realize I can't be sleeping now and flail my arms or maybe I'll finally wake up for real and be somewhere else or some time else. The world seems ethereal today…. probably slept too much, and I certainly don't want this transitional period if my life to get in the way of a perfectly good new age. I'll do what is asked of me Q, nothing less but when it comes to being asked to do something more, it's a matter of being confident enough to do things. I don't like feeling like when I go to move a stone to help I'm more likely to drop it on someone's foot…. as strange an analogy as it is a day.