Let me qualify my prior statement of "I don't want to see those tapes" -I don't tie up those with some kind of legalese the good people of the movement.

No, not "I don't want to see" that's not what I meant, I meant I don't want to see those tapes in any setting where I am forced or ambushed except in some way that helps or is needed in a court. The idea of seeing so many things I remember scares me but I want to help, and so cut it up and make documentaries on how evil these people are and how justice needs to be done - have a Bill out there somewhere do a "killing me" for all I care, have people create characters in cartoons or use me screaming as a meme - I haven't the slightest fuck to give. But I don't want to see those videos myself except where I have to and then only at a minimum. I do not care otherwise. Do not limit yourself in what you do with them out of respect to my privacy, do however destroy the evil as efficiently and effectively as you can with any and all manner you have to do them with no concern to my privacy.

It's a matter of priorities as I value destroying them over being embarrassed or scared. I know the bad guys or even some plants might take a word of mine to mean something it doesn't. So on the off chance I have said something that means something, well it does mean something but certainly not anything you need to restrain yourselves on. I do not yet even grasp the scope of my part in anything let alone the patterns I can imagine of my life having been known to so many for so long. I can think of so many things that it might mean and even some positives in the giant list of negatives.