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ok… after learning my sister was dead and talking about things I never thought I'd talk to people about I am kind of like a robot now it feels like. Please do help, and I'll post more tomorrow if needed but I can't imagine what else anyone would want.

I don't want anyone to talk about me anymore than is necessary and especially the self-hate and weirdness they drilled into my head over a lifetime, all I ever wanted was a friend and yet they gave me these parody's of friends that I would dance like a monkey for and eventually be betrayed by…. but at least I didn't let them kill me and usually did the right thing even after so many years of it…. I think I won in a way.

And even when I didn't do the right thing, I am fine with anything being known so long as justice is done. I don't even view myself as a person. I could kill myself without even a second thought and I was living only for my friend who I thought was my friend…. well, I'll find something else to live for and justice is it for now. I don't think I'll be sad at the end but it can't be helped today.