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Some of you won't like this, but I don't give a sh*t:
I owe many REAL Jews, and some others, an apology.
I apologize for being hasty to malign the whole lot of you. I wanted to be on the side of good, no matter what. And I believed you ALL to be evil. I was wrong.
When I was censored/banned for legitimate criticism of Israel, on r/TheDonald, I wandered into the r/AltRight subreddit by chance. I asked them, "What's the deal with the Jews, I cannot bring myself to hate another, just because they have a different religion" (Or something like that). They "effort-posted" on me, for like 4 hours following this. Gave me the "JQ", so to speak. I was taken back by the fact many were well-researched and bright. I realized most of them were not "racist" or "supremacist" at all, but were merely concerned for the well-being of their people and their families. And I thought to myself… "Wow, these are the actual good guys"… Coincidentally, I was also falling into this movement around the same time (shortly after the 2016 section). And, I'm quite embarrassed by what I promoted on our boards… /pol/, /cbts/, and /qresearch/… I was with you all from the beginning of this, yet not really with you at all, as I was ignorant and not seeing the forrest through the trees.
It's pretty easy to find evil and wrong-doing in a group, when you are looking for it. When I looked into Jewish wrong-doings and history, I found much to be concerned about. I found much that was certainly, evil, by anyone's definition. I became somewhat obsessed with "knowing my enemy". I was even emboldened by statements from Q like, "We're saving Israel for last" (which now means something entirely different to me) and the "MOS" post, which may have referred to to Mssad. I learned about Israeli involvement in 9/11, blood-letting ceremonies, the Talmud, Baal-worship and FAR more. At this stage in my "red-pilling", I went HARD through what we all know as, the "anger-phase"… "Not on my watch, you bstards", I would say to myself, as I set-out to expose them all. I was pissed off, to say the least. I embraced men like Richard Spencer and the like. I remember being awe-struck by Spencer in particular, as I had never seen anyone so boldly defend white people (and let's face it, we DO get shit on a lot, as of late). So this was refreshing and welcoming to me. While I never joined any gang or attended a WN rally, I certainly took to the cause, online. I even joined the online membership for "Identity Europa", and became a friend to many online groups on Reddit, Discord, etc… I formed my own online groups via Reddit and elsewhere, also. Many of you would recognize a pseudonym name I used for over a year, I'm certain. (I cast a wide net). I taught what I had learned, to EVERYONE. I myself never considered myself, "racist" (which I understand as a hatred for someone simply because they are of a different race), or "supremacist" (which I understand as a desire to rule over others, and see my own race as superior). Though, I certainly threw around slurs like, "nigger", "kike", etc. I felt that harsh-rhetoric would be better, than an eventual armed conflict with these people. I even got kinda "Nazi-ish" for a bit, referred to myself as a "White Nationalist", created WN music, and aligned with many as such. I even planned to write a book about it all. I rationalized, if the Jews were the "bad guys", the Nazis must have been the "good guys". I hated these people for what they had done. I listened to men like, David Cole, regarding the holocaust (which I still believe is far overblown in scope and death-toll), I was reading Ragnar Redbeard (very anti-Christian), Kevin MacDonald and more. I listened to Jared Taylor (whom I still have a great deal of respect for) Nathan Damigo (who I believe is an agent of some type now), and many more of the like. I wanted to make sure everyone knew who the true enemy was, but I was very wrong… I don't beat myself up over it now (or the men I followed), as it is a very complex matter to fully understand, and it was easy to deceive myself (and perhaps others) regarding my lack of perspective of the bigger picture. I never trolled/attacked (online only) any Jews who I did not identify as doing evil. But, still I blanket-cast the entire group… This was a mistake.