Struggling lately. Mentally. Always had this, since a kid. But stronger lately. Can't pray without bad images popping in my head. Cant do much of anything. but especially when I pray. Have bad OCD, but this is more than that. Feels like some sort of brief mental possession or something. But these images that pop in my head are terrible and unbidden. Is there anything like this known in the medical field, like am I schizo or just retarded? Been able to maintain a pretty normal life, reaching 40s ….but last few years and last few months especially, just hard. have to keep repeating prayers until no bad stuff pops in my head.