So I may have made a mistake and completely messed up what I was being called to do…. I feel lost, alone, and unplugged…. I know I made some bad choices but not every soldier can get through these battles while staying clean… I feel the labels being forced onto me, while my spirit reminds me that so much more is happening then just the flesh and blood…. Q team I am sorry for perhaps making my life's choas a part of something much bigger that I still do not understand, I am still clueless to exactly why and who…. But all I can do is try to move forward and maybe you will find a way to let me know I am on the right path… Because right now I feel like I am being held down and blocked from where I should be, my brain feels like it is being hard wired or something trying to choke out my abilities… Or maybe my mistakes cost me so much more than I know… Either way I will persist to exist and see what happens…. But it would be nice to know the truth… Love all of you… And sorry that I made some really bad choices… WWG1WGA