No suicide! I know it sucks right now…but keep going! Surrender to God…Jesus and believe! He Loves you and WILL make a way for you!
I hear you…but your response shows that you don't trust Him! Remember, Peter walked on water as long as he focused on Jesus, but as soon as he took his eyes off of Jesus and focused on the wind and the waves, he began to sink…that's where you are! Stop focusing on the wind and the waves and keep your eyes fixed on Jesus AND THEN WATCH what He does with your life! You MUST believe and trust Him! Do it! Do it now!!! You won't be disappointed!